|
 memories of what never was
|
2000-02-08 16:29:27 unicorns in hyperspace on ichabod, we were having an absolutely wonderful discussion about religion, god, death, and afterlife. i was really getting into it when it turned into a huge bickering argument over the style of posts. ::sighs:: and i had much more to contribute on the topic too, but it seems to be over now. strange how the present affects the past by way of our view of things. in the present, youre almost always mixed up. you think youre having a great time, but maybe you look back and think that same month or year was a terrible time. how relative that is to the present. like last year. i thought i was having a good time, or as good as it could get between fits of crying and cutting and self doubt. now i look back and think that it was one of the worst years ive been through, based on all the degradation i was subjected to, that i am free from now. even though i dont get out now, i still think now is better than last year, when i went out every friday and saturday night guaranteed. im waiting for my partner in the science project to come over. ive been waiting an hour. county band is this weekend! by some simple twist of fate, wouldnt it just be a vatican-certified miracle if i got asked to the valentine dance? wouldnt it be a shocker if i got a carnation on valentines day? ::Laughs:: got to go ! |
