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 memories of what never was
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1999-11-15 23:10:55 ahhh, theres nothing like getting yelled at to get the motivational juices flowing. now im finally looking at the college applications and numerous essays ill have to have done by dec 1, hopefully. its not helping that i have to leave for a three day retreat tomorrow. im all packed even. im still deciding whether to toss a recorder in my bag. they say that books and walkmans are forbidden, but they didnt say anything about musical instruments. i think the reasoning behind that was something like so that we dont seclude ourselves and get involved with the group. playing an instrument isnt exactly in that spirit, but at least i could finger it at night or something. i hate going for long periods of time without my clarinet or some other source of music. speaking of which, one of the essays i must do involves writing about 3 objects which will give the admissions committee insight about myself. so far ive come up with a music note and an ankh. im still thinking about what the third object would be. the example they give is something like "a stone, a leaf, an unfound door." i want my third object to have something to do with love of nature maybe . . .::sighs:: i cant be expected to write for a while thanks to this retreat. damn't im hungry. more than hungry. today in calculus class, and pretty much for the rest of the afternoon, i could only think about how long its been since ive kissed a guy. i feel like a really shallow player or something, because i really need to GET SOME! id never make it as a nun. its only been since july since i saw ryan. i guess the real question is .. . whos willing? |
