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 memories of what never was
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25 September 2005 13:07 this morning during music rehearsal for mass was when t's absence really started to hit me. im actually starting to see signs of depression in myself now. ill pushing away people i usually want to spend time with, refusing to talk, snapping at people who havent done anything wrong. i started crying during one of the songs and had to excuse myself. its really hard because we had already become really good friends, going to each other for support as well as getting out of the classroom and having fun. he called last night to say he arrived in chicago ok. he says hell keep in touch but its just not the same. jeanne and i were talking last night about how quiet our house is now that ts gone and m moved out. she and i are both the kind of people who will stay in our rooms and amuse ourselves unless someone else comes to us and says "hey lets do this, itll be fun!" thats what t did for us. i hate making new friends. |
