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Ichabod!

22 June 2003 14:16

i went to borders last night and got chobits 4 and 5, and ill have to go back next week to use my ten percent discount to get chobits 6. i also realized, that i read a lot of non fiction and a lot of comic books and very little in between. nothing that has a kind of intellectual middle ground at all.

and i realized that what i need is a book like this: "you fucked up, now where do you go? graduate programs you can actually get into." i was looking at gre test prep and school selection books and theyre all like this: the smart students guide to colleges, cracking the ivy league, etc etc. kinda discouraging, since this time around i dont really feel like i have a whole lot going for me.

well, unless honors program is actually gonna pull me through. "yeah, i know my gpa sucks...but i was in the HP!"

i feel like the only way im gonna get through grad school applications is to take them from a completely mechanical perspective, and not let myself get personally involved in them at all. too bad i dont know how to do that.

i dont even know that i really should go to grad school, except that i want to be surrounded by books for the rest of my life. and according to the books i was skimming last night, that sense of intellectual pursuit in itself is a good enough reason to go for another degree.

whatever. my new mobile phone has a "nokia sugar bowl" game on it and thats just freaking crazy.