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Ichabod!

2002-07-03 10:13 p.m.

wow. what a week. first the pms/pmdd update, shall we? you know you love it.

this month wasnt bad at ALL. two days before i started i went to dc and participated in my very least favorite activity...walking around in a group and looking touristy. and it didnt totally get on my nerves and make me a bitch. i was amazed. there werent a whole lot of symptoms the week before, just a few mild ones. but the day i started...no, the day before...every emotion was just intensified and multiplied and my mind was bursting with ...magical experiences? that doesnt sound right, but just the idea of having all sorts of neato positive and quasi-deep relevations ((haha, i committed a crazy joe. that should be revelations)) about myself. thats right, POSITIVE! i can hardly believe it myself. i was also struck with a craving for the tv show friends. no idea why, just happened. i never watch tv but sunday and monday i actually turned it on and specifically looked for the show friends. kaba withdrawl?

so anyway, ive managed to extend the good positive feelings from sunday all the way to today and hopefully further. its especially helpful when im missing jesse and i can sorta remind myself to appreciate the things i have around me at the present moment.

and continuing this trend of thought and communication, i had dinner with christa last night. and we just talked and talked and talked. we were going to try to see a movie but talking was so much more important. christa and i have such a strange relationship. small talk is practically impossible for us, somehow, and i feel really bad about that. but when it comes to the big talks, the deep stuff, the stuff that youd hesitate to discuss with anyone else, its so easy to say to christa. weve been together through soome of our roughest times. in harry potter they say that there are some things you just cannot go through together and not end up being friends. battling a mountain troll is one of those things. freshman year at trinity high school is another one of those things.

today was a great day at work too. a day out in the field in michaux state forest, checking out the culvert at big pond road over hairy spring. i love how marcus is teaching me all these plants..i basically spent all morning sitting around the brook and identifying plants. today i learned three different species of ferns: cinnamon fern, hay-scented fern, and new york fern. i had no idea, cause i never knew what differences to look for between ferns. i also learned tulip tree, viburnum, selfheal, thimbleberry, indian pipe and prolly some others ive already forgotten. oh yeah, some violets but they werent blooming so i couldnt tell northern white from northern blue violet. saw two frogs too. wonderful way to spend the morning, beautiful day.

i have something else ive been meaning to copy over to here, that i wrote in my paper journal. but this entries already long enough, so it will have to wait.

maybe its time to wave goodbye now