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Ichabod!

2002-02-20 12:36 a.m.

everything in its right place

wow ani. oh wow ani. tonight i went to the ani difranco concert at the morris performing arts center in south bend. incredible. fuel, napoleon, 32 flavors, more that i knew all the words to and awesome new songs ive never heard before. terrific band, with an awesome trumpet player and sax/woodwind player that gave the whole show a jazzy versatility that blew ani away from any possible boundaries, titles, categories, or limitations on her music. ended with jukebox and her encore was joyful girl. fantabulous.

plus it was great to get out and see all the crazy beautiful people that really do exist but i never see at notre dame....patchwork clothes and leather pants and dreadlocks and shaved heads and colors and piercings and all means of expression you can think of. its comforting to know that there are different people outside of this bubble, more than just abercrombie and j.crew (a shipment of j.crew catalogs showed up in our mail room today...they were gone in hours). and then to just let go and surrender myself to the music and the crowd and the performers. and dance.

and now im worn out from the experience of tonight. it seemed to go by so quickly. ani just seems so real. she does everything her way, her own record label, her own songs, her own band.

and a week from today i need to hand in a paper for english class and a mechanics exam. i have a modern and a mechanics assignment due on friday. i dont think ill be going out much this weekend to make up for the fact that im not going to get any work done this week at all until thursday. this is such a slacker week for me...sleeping in every day, skipping two classes today (i knew it would be futile to go, all i would be able to think about would be ani), and going to concerts and basketball games in the evenings. and ive just got more social and cultural events lined up...like going to see jeff in the odd couple on friday, anneys recital on saturday, and the vagina monologues on monday.

so i went to my poetry class as my first class today...and it was absolutely refreshing. i love taking that class because its so different from all my other classes, but i cant imagine being an english major and having all classes like that...and ultimately taking them for granted. like today a few people skipped class and ben doodled all through class and obviously didnt have his course packet with him for the readings. i wouldnt dream of doing that, i want to get everything out of this class that i can...but i guess to a lot of the kids that get classes like that all the time, its just another stuffy prof spitting out ideas in front of a class cause he likes to hear himself talk. i wanna stop them and say, come on guys, wake up, listen up, you cant tell me youve already thought of all this philosophy of poetry and language yourself, youre the biggest bull shitters in the world. open up your young ears and absorb some of this! realize the opportunity in front of you and learn, grow, think! god damn't, wake up and think!