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Ichabod!

20 February 2004 23:47

::laughs::

i wanna say, thank goodness lent and ash wednesday are coming up. its like the february new years resolution time. im in some serious need of reprioritizing and i dunno, mental feng shui? (feng - four directions, shui - discourse, feng shui - geomancy)

::looks for quote in the analects of confucius and fails to find it::

ah, fuck it.

im getting bitter. cause i have to get in gear and actually work. work on things other than my poetry class and the hellmann lab, cause those are the two things which hold the most interest for me anymore, besides campus cultural events. i need to get in gear about chinese ways of thought and quantum mechanics. ::sighs::

it really shouldnt be as much of a problem as it is. i should technically have time for it, if i stop doing stupid shit.

like eating. and maybe sleeping.

no really. like emailing friends and writing in diaryland? i hope not. ive noticed lately that not only have i drifted away from my classes ive drifted away from all the people i was keeping in touch with through email and whatnot. i dont like that.

like yoga? thats already been subsumed by the fact that i have such an early class on tuesday/thursday. i have a really hard time getting up early enough to do yoga before i have to be on campus. im not sure id be doing it at all if i wasnt in a class right now.

oh whatever. ill get it organized, maybe not by laying out a plan of how im going to budget my time, but by making better choices about how i spend my time from hour to hour.

i just have to avoid the urge to punish myself for being so lazy and stupid. i need to be forgiving of myself. i fucked up a bit there, put off things, blew off things that i shouldnt have. but thats over and done now, and i cant really punish myself for it. i just need to do better from now on.

right? yes.