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Ichabod!

29 July 2003 10:29

it has taken me the longest time to get up and running this morning. and i attribute this to the fact that i really didnt sleep so well last night.

i had a scary dream, the kind of scary dream that wakes you up and you cant go back to sleep immediately cause you still have images of the scary dream in your head and if you sleep again the scary dream will just continue. and so you cant sleep again until you manage to displace scary thoughts with happy ones.

last night was the first 9/11 dream ive had in a long time, and the only truly frightening one ive had. i dont remember why a group of people including me and my mom were looking for something in the woods but it was a cloudy day and i looked up to see a plane landing, much like we see here in south bend since the airport is so close to campus. but the plane started spinning and i shouted for everyone to look, see, it was going to crash over by the airport. a safe distance from where we were but still near enough to hear and maybe see an explosion.

then the clouds broke in the sky and revealed a tall tall skyscraper, and another plane burst through it. towards us. and there was a second when we thought we might just have to dodge debris as it passed to one side of us. then there was a second when we thought we should run backwards cause it was going to land in front of us, and another second when we thought we should run forward underneath it to make sure it cleared over us. but all of those seconds passed and we stood there frozen. i think i reached for my mom in the dream, and then woke up.

this dream comes on the heels of a friend in hawaii telling me that she and some people she knows have been having dreams of a disaster in hawaii, and everyone agrees that something is "off" there, somethings not right with the energy.

but it also impressed on my mind the possibility that it could happen again.