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 memories of what never was
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01 February 2006 18:43 but one thing i am amazed about is the complete disappearance of my former premenstrual dysphoric disorder. that terrible thing that for two weeks out of every four made getting out of bed the most despair filled activity you could imagine. the gradual build up from predictable once monthly crying fits, to a point where i didnt even feel like the same person for the two weeks before my period and i did afterwards. then the medication, and the medication not working, and the wondering if this what a preview of THE REST OF MY LIFE. and what dooce calls her Thank God Tom Cruise Is Not In Charge Otherwise I Would Be Dead Right Now Vitamin. then, in the face of circumstances that would make it difficult/expensive to continue my prescription, i switched from daily, to two weeks out of four for the medication. then not at all. and im fine. absolutely and wonderfully fine. it makes me wonder if not only was i overworking myself to the point of physical sickness in college, but mentally as well? how much more and how much better could i have done if i wasnt so crippled? what happens if i go back to grad school? to the northeast? was the it the stress? the midwest? yeah, ill go with the midwest. it was all the midwest's fault. stupid middle of the country. |
