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Ichabod!

2003-02-06 11:17 a.m.

background to entry for wed. 5 feb 2003. I had gone out wednesday, saturday, and monday nights of the week before, proving that the weekend really doesnt ever have to end. ive since then had a feeling of unproductiveness which i have since remedied. heres my story.

but the amazing part was that when i was finished (working on my outline at ten pm) I wasnt tired or exhausted or even cranky. i felt i could have walked all the way back to the flat if i wanted to....by that time pat had wandered in and we had a nice chat complaining about the humanities compared to the beauty of physics.

and just sitting there reading and sipping wine i felt so at peace. i listened and could almost imagine the alarms going off up and down edgeware road to be crickets and cicadas and locusts and pretend i was in the forest, back home ::wave of nostalgia/homesickness::

now its late in the evening and ive just finished condensing the outline for my philosophy presentation. and you know what? it was wasy, almost even fun. makes me wonder why i didnt do the whole arts and letters thing earlier...then i remember the conversation pat and i had. yeah. thats why.

(thursday) but even today i just finished the short statement for my reu app and i cant imagine why i had put it off for so long...or why i get so anxious at the mere thought of submitting applications. maybe im traumatized because i so severely botched the whole college app deal (i never grasped the gravity of it at all) or the idea of someone so closely scrutinizing my life based on a sheet of paper and then judging or making decisions for me. i dunno. but i cant believe i put it off so long, now.

a bit more, going back a bit further to saturday

saturday i finally made it out to camden market and i was absolutely in heaven ther. i flt like i was buying so much though i only spent nine pounds. i bought a patch and a headwrap and even bargained down the price of a belt. the more i wear the headwrap the more i love it and im realizing how great it would be for things like hiking and travel. i know jesse would have loved all of the markets at camden and i wish we could visit them together. its a lot like new hope pa, but british and there are just so many characters and so much cool stuff for so cheap. must go back...